I am leaning heavily today on my Lord.
The word of God says:
Proverbs 3:5 KJV
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
Sometimes that is easily done...other times it is a struggle.
Right now Christopher is desperately ill with the flu which combined with his latest asthma flare is horrid. Asthma plus flu makes for a very bad combination. He is at home but not moving air well. He is on every 4 hour treatments around the clock and oral steroids.
To top it off.....much to my surprise I received the call today from his endocrine blood work. The visit to the endocrine doctor was last week and the specialist felt that he was not going to be growth hormone deficient because he has not an ounce of fat on him. Most children low on growth hormone are chunky around the middle. But Christopher is not.
He is a little low on growth hormone. Now this is not a bad thing necessarily but I fully believed with all my heart his growth hormone was normal. Treatment costs upwards of 100 thousand dollars! It is expensive! It is hard to get it paid for by insurance. I am at a loss to understand. So I have to lean....lean on my Lord.
My son needs to grow. Growing would enable him to perhaps "outgrow" allergies and asthma. Yet in the face of having to buy growth hormone factors I am at a loss as to understand. I am going through each door God opens leaning on HIM.
Throughout his young life, our son has had to face many challenges. Asthma, allergies, sensory issues and almost losing his life on more than one occasion. God is faithful. And while I don't understand, I lean on my Savior, our HEALER, OUR KING. HE ALONE can help us walk through the doors he opens....with the faith required to face each mountain.
I do not understand...but God does. I will not walk this alone for I have family, friends and a Lord who walk with me.
So today.....I am leaning......so heavily on the arms of my Savior cause today I don't have strength to walk alone.
came back to add: His growth hormone factor testing will be Febuary 3rd. It involves putting in an IV, giving him medication to have the pitutary gland give off some growth hormone and measuring the amounts over several hours via the heplock to access 8 or more blood draws. Yeah......sounds like a fun way to spend the day...LOL.