Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Walking on Water

Over the weekend I was sick with a nasty cold.....I felt so awful and on Sunday had to call out of keeping the nursery. I took benadryl and slept most of the day.

My kids....prayed for me and it blessed me.

Christopher was praying for me and said "Dear Jesus help mommy feel better and refresh her...her...her....just make her refreshed when she wakes up".

It was so precious. The girls prayed for me too and I thought I would remember what they said.....because it was beyond adorable and I wanted to remember...but having taken benadryl I could not function enough to write it down and now I can't remember....but suffice it to say....their child like faith blew me away.


They pray simply because they want too. Too often I say I'll pray about something and get distracted......and don't pray about it right then.......and have forgotten the request......we have all done that...but my kids don't think twice about praying NOW! I need to take that lesson to heart.

As of late God is teaching me more about keeping my eyes on Him despite the wind and waves....as long as I keep my eyes on Him...I can walk on water...the minute I take my eyes off......I sink into despair...frustration and so much more. I am trying to keep my eyes on Jesus even when the storm...small or large makes no sense. when I can keep my eyes on Him.....I walk on water of victory....joy and faith. The storms quiets and the waves seem like nothing....cause my eyes are on Jesus...the master of the winds and the rains......so I am praying I walk on water more instead of letting my eyes and faith get distracted by the circumstances.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Sisters......

My sister gave me a book this week...a small book entitled "What Sisters Share"..and it contains thoughgs and memories of what sisters are to one another. In the margins of the book she wrote comments.....about our childhood...our sisterhood our lives together. Being a twin....we shared something......something beyond description or comprehension. The bond is eternal.......and began from the moment of conception since we are identical twins......we have always been together......even before we were actually conceived........together as the same egg......that then split too form two identical yet two entirely different human beings. Some would say that is a dichotomy...impossible.........but that is the thing with twins.......they have the same genetic make up.....but God puts into their souls a unique and individual spirit that makes them who they are.


As I read the book and watched my daughters.....I looked at the amazing bond they already have. What Hannah does.....Jennifer wants to do...begs to do....longs to do. This week Hannah had to have a shot to prepare for kindergarten coming in the fall. Jennifer started crying that she wants one too, so she can go to school. When I told her no...she was quite upset......but finally said "I hold sissy's hand when she get her shot"....ahh......love in action...holding your sister's hand during a shot. The nurse however, could not allow it for safety purposes.....but after the shot......Jennifer petted her sister and kissed her and said "it ell be ahhh right"...(it will be all right). Precious...I tell you...precious! I want my girls to have a deep bond and not rivalry.




When we do get a house....some say we should get the girls their own room...but they want to be with one another.......they want to share a room. I hear them at night swapping their baby secrets.......giggling and talking and sharing their lives...their day...their hopes and dreams........of course a very child like version but it is beautiful. My girls..........sisters that are growing a deep bond that is blossoming each day. Yes the days will come that they argue or disagree or even down right fight.......but what they share now is only the beginning.

I hope that one day......they will look back with the precious memories my sister and I hold.........and treasure their girl hood together. That the images brought up by being sisters will be that of love and fun.

Which brings me to yet another bond of sisterhood. Sisters born of the spirit. Born together because of the family of God. The connection through Jesus binds us together to be a support to love one another and to unite with women who may not believe in the Lord Jesus.....but to have a bond because we are women who have heartbreak and joy........who have triumph and tragedy but can share and bear one another's burdens. Our job as Christian women is to love all women, men, boys and girls with the love of Christ. That single mom some despise.......she is out sister too.......struggling to raise her child alone and feeling lonlier than we can ever imagine. That older lady......alone in the world and who wants to talk our ear off......because she is lonely.....she is our sister too. That lady who is lost in a world of sin, drugs...or whatever......she is our sister too......crying out.........crying out for someone to care that she is well her........a unique special individual that just needs someone to care. And our offers to help may be rejected......but we can still pray........pray that our light will shine into the dark world.......showing that true believers are people of love and not judgement.......people who understand that pain.......is the great equalizer.....for bad things happen to all......but if we can help each other triumph in tragedy perhaps....we can reach just one......just one for Jesus....and it will matter. So regardless of whether that woman God is dealing with you about is saved...unsaved......related or a stranger that keeps crossing your path......remember she is your sister.......for God created her......and He has a purpose and a plan for her that involves you.......or He would not lay her own your heart. God has laid someone on my heart..........and I plan to to somehow touch her life........even if she doesn't know that is what I am doing....I will pray for her daily and I will love her.......and hopefully I can help her through the trials she faces.........the harships she is walking through. I pray God will use me to love my sisters.......all of them...........blood kin or not.......let me reach them for Jesus.......and in doing so reach all those around me for my Lord.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Once in a while...God reminds you....

that life.........though hard and filled with trials......there are those who have faced deeper trials....walked harder paths...endured greater sorrows......and that He walked with EVERY one of them. Just as He walked with them...He walks with me...even on days I feel so overwhelmed my head aches and my bones are weary and my heart wants to sit down and shed a thousand tears...He walks with me. I am NEVER alone.

Tonight our local news featured a Mommy blogger...from..Bring the Rain...it is her story...the story of a precious baby girl who in her very short time upon this earth changed her world. The story of a mother, a family whose faith in the face of sorrow and loss grew ever stronger.

I am humbled......I am in need of repentance for taking the naughty things my children do for granted. I am in need of getting down on my knees and thanking my Lord for what I do have and for having "stumbled" across this story for in so doing one little girl, named Audrey......had changed me too.

Dear Lord,My Savior, My King:

Let me be every mindful that every moment with my children is precious. Regardless of the times I have to clean up messes that aggravate me. Regardless of sleepless nights...these moments.........ALL of them...are GIFTS from a mighty God.......a God who formed these precious children within my womb and created their destiny in Him. All He asks is that I nurture every moment......moments that feed the destiny He ALONE has created for them to do.

When my children cry.......He cares....when my children laugh.......He laughs. When my children are afraid or worried He holds them too. I do not do it alone...for when I hold my children in my arms.......He is holding me......helping me be strong......He is my strength and my fortress.......and He wants to grow in me things I can only imagine so I can nurture the beautiful things He is growing in my children.

To God be the glory and praise for the wonderful creations He has made......in my children........my husband............and the blessings I have.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Hannah's Picture of God


Hannah drew this picture when we were doing our devotions. It was about creation. She drew herself on the earth watering it and beside the earth is "God...watering the whole earth with His watering can".

I love this and it just makes me smile when I look at it. I love how she drew God so big. He is HUGE to her and I always want her to think of God as HUGE in her life.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Her gift to Jesus

We are attending a Kids Crusade. Last night Jennifer did not want to be left out when the minister asked who wanted Jesus in their heart. She raised her hand and insisted on going to pray. Now I know at not yet 3 she does not really understand what it means to accept Christ but there is no way I would ever deny my child's request to go forward and pray. Even if she is just praying for God to bless Mommy and Daddy and help me be a good girl......I will let her. She was so cute praying with Mommy. Anyway, on the way home I talked to the kids how when we accept Jesus in our hearts He does not leave nor forsake us. Just because we make mistakes doesn't mean He walks out of our hearts. All we have to do is admit to Jesus we are sorry and to help us do better and He will but He will never leave nor forsake us.

Then Jennifer pipes up and says

"I tell you sumpin Mommy"

I said

What Baby

She said

"I gived Desus my ball"


Now to some this would be a silly conversation proving she knows nothing about giving herself to the Lord......but I say she just preached a sermon with those simple words.

She loves her ball, she loves playing with her ball and it is one of her most favorite toys. She just gave Jesus her favorite thing...what she considers her best! What a message! If we gave Jesus our favorite things...our best things.......what could we do for Him?

Oh and I had to repent from holding some things back from the Lord.......cause I forget sometimes and try to hold onto the things I should leave in His hands.

Monday, May 4, 2009


It is not me who forgot to write down some link and email addresses when I changed computers so that I dont have them in my list.

It is not me who needs to be doing some much needed laundry instead of blogging and playing on Facebook.

It is not me who let her son stay home from school for what appears to be a mental health day instead of making him go to school when I knew he wasn't so sick he could have not gone. Tummy ache does not equal missed school...but to be honest I really think he needed some time with just mommy...and him and I had a great mommy and son talk.

It is not me who wants to go to bed, pull the covers over my head and sleep for hours...cause.......well I am just tired.

It is not me who scheduled to much this week and should have said no to someone she said yes to....sigh.

It is not me who has no idea if she has the nursery on Thursday night or not.

It is not me who feels bad because we can't afford to do the spring fling at at the kids school...

It is not me who is insanely happy that school is almost over for the year.

It is not me who bought herself cheese puffs and will not share..after all I "always" share since I am trying to teach my kids the value of sharing...LOL.

It is not me who thinks my son is 8 going on 18 and wonders how much more time I have left before he gets to "big" to cuddle.