Thursday, March 27, 2008

Trusting and Letting Go

I trust God to watch over my children, yet at time it is hard to trust the life of my son in the hands of others. With all his allergies, I often worry when he is not in my presence or the presence of his father. This little boy is always trusting. Yet for myself, I battle worry. Tonight my son is at Junior Bible Quiz Practice and they are having a meal and dessert. He has his alternatives with him. And I have no reason to mistrust the people he is with. They have been very good about his allergies and needs. Yet, deep in the recesses of my heart, I find that I have a hard time letting go and trusting others. Letting go, a part of parenthood. Letting go, something we must do to allow God to take over our lives. Letting go, is NOT easy. Letting go means trusting He who is higher than us to take care of us and trusting that His plans are greater than our own. Yet at the same time, the letting go process, is harder than you can ever imagine. When you have stood at your child’s bedside, watching his very life slip from him, it is hard to let go. However, God has never failed me. Every time I have let go, my Father in heaven always, always has fulfilled His promises. He has always given my son back to me. Yet these, small ways, of letting go, the daily letting go is still hard for me. Maybe, one day when I do learn to let go, I will not have to walk through the trials of letting go, over and over again. Jesus said, "Come unto me for my yoke is easy and my burden is light"........why can’t I do that? Why can’t I let go and let God? I have no idea, but I am working on it. Thank God, He is patient with us. So in the process of letting go, I am believing for a miracle in Christopher’s life.