blogs from the weekend

April 25th
Ahh the joys of a new computer...yet we are unable to connect to the internet due to some technical issue. Hopefully, Mike can get it all figured out so that we can get online. Funny thing is...that 20 years ago...when I graduated from High School the internet had not yet been born. My kids will never know the world without technology such as this. As for me, I have fast become reliant to the technical advances of today. I love getting online, sharing thoughts and ideas....playing games and "socializing" with others that I would have otherwise never met. What an avenue to use for the glory of God. I try and make sure my blog/facebook/message boards I write on...uplift my Lord and encourage instead of tear down. At the same time I try to be real. Life isn't always roses....but the Lord helps me deal with the thorns and valleys. God is good. I am thankful for this new computer with all the new things we can do and discover...just in adding pictures I have all kinds of options I didn't have prior to this computer. COOL!
God is my hope,my strenth, my joy, my peace. I often wonder how I can share Him more with those around me...and while I do share with those in my immediate vicinity...having online access enables me to do so even more. As long as I remain true to my Lord's teaching and let all I do, say,write and speak bring glory to Him....I think I can spread His love. When you reach out to others in the true love of Jesus...it settles on those around you like the morning dew.....or the sunset in the evenings...it touches and effects all those who come in contact with it.



April 26, 2009
Ahhh another manic Sunday...kids to get ready for church....house to prepare for Sunday lunch company....nursery to keep and then company to entertain. This morning I suddenly remembered at 5 am out of a dead sleep that I had meant to start the roast in the crockpot last night. So at got up and did it...I had it all done by 5:15 AM. Go MOMMY...LOL. The roast turned out quite yummy! I did not get my Sunday nap but I made it through. My darling husband did get us connected but there are some gliches...nothing we can't work around...but we think it is the server and not the computer.

Temporarily..out of service/order

This blog and my brain...LOL.

Our new computer should arrive any day but computer issues plague me like nuts...espeically when it comes to blogging and message boards....I can get on Facebook but that locks up quite frequently and freezes up my computer. So.........in the interest of not leaving you all hanging and wondering what is going on in our world......I am going to suspend blogging until I get my new computer up and running. Hopefully, having a newer, faster computer will enable me to keep my blog not only up to date but with fresher look and more posting. I miss blogging.......really miss it.

As of late, my little one is not sleeping well.....so my brain is also on temporary suspend mode...LOL. Please don't give up on me...and continue to follow here for updates or notice that I am back in full swing. I have many blog posts to catch up on when I get back.

On a side note......my father in law is still doing great and God is so good.

Still in the potty training trenches...as although she is close to getting it...it is on again off again.......so still working on it. My husband's company signed a contract to do quite a number of plane repairs and his hours have increased......both a good thing and a not so good.

I am also working on spring cleaning and the like.....getting ready for school to be out at the end of next month.....yay!

God bless you all and I will at least visit and read your blogs and will reply when my current computer cooperates.....LOL.

I will be back soon!

An appointed time

The word of God shows that there are appointed times for everything. God is a God of order........and precision......and love. As I mentioned in my previous post while waiting for my father in law to get out of surgery.....my husband and Brother T. from our church.....met a man who was in great need and in great pain because of events in his life. Now...perhaps some do not agree with what I am about to say or thing it is simplifying the things of God....but God's plan IS simple.

The man sat at a table right behind us.........and he asked a question and my husband and Brother T. answered and responded. At that moment in time........they had a choice.......do I answer and talk to this brother..........who said at the time......"no ya'll are busy" or they could have done what they did. Put down their breakfast and own concerns to talk with a man whose emotional pain was clearly visible. The weight of his troubles and pain bearing down on him like a half ton weight. It was THAT visible. God obviously had a plan for "such a time as this". There we were waiting for my father in law who was in serious surgery........but here was a man and his wife who........were on the brink of a decision that could change the course of their lives. I so believe....God set up this appointment. How many appointments have I missed because I was busy or distracted? How many times do people come in and out of our lives in a blink but had we listened to the still small voice......we could have been agents of our Lord to bring about life giving change.

Yesterday evening....my husband received a call from Brother T...who had spent some additional time with this gentleman....the man GAVE HIS LIFE TO THE LORD! Brother T. said that this gentleman came out of that prayer.........visibly changed.

The fact that this man was in that place at that time for this reason.......blows me away........God directed what happened. Nothing we did, my husband or Brother T. did was of their own design. Thankfully they obeyed God and made the choice to put their own stuff aside and meet a man in his hour of need. 2 souls came to God yesterday.......countless others walk in and out of Christian's lives daily.....how many appointments do we miss because of our own issues. Oh Father above......forgive me for countless missed opportunities.......let me ever be mindful that you have appointed times for people including me. You have a plan and I need to listen so I can be a part of the plan.

May God be praised. My father in law......will be beyond blessed when he hears that 2 people came to Jesus while he was in surgery. My husband is blown away.

God is faithful and God is good and He wants all people to know and receive His life giving gift of salvation.

Tumor, tornadoes, and other updates

My father in law's surgery was today. They removed the tumor and the initial testing shows it was indeed benign. I was able to speak with him before I left and he was awake, talking and responding appropriately. He was a bit swollen but that was to be expected. While we were waiting..........here comes the good part...

We had gone down to get some breakfast and a dear brother in our church was with us. He insisted on buying our breakfast. We sat down to eat and a gentleman said to my husband and this dear brother "Are you pastor's"...they answered and he invited them to talk with him. His wife was in the neurological intensive care unit because she had attempted suicide by taking pills which cause very bad seizures. He expressed an interest in knowing more about the Lord but was not ready to commit to Jesus. Then my husband went with him to pray with his wife and him. During that time...the wife gave her heart and life to the LORD! The wife had become overwhelmed because the husband lost his job....they are being evicted and have 4 children. They really have had some tough stuff going on. But she gave her life to Jesus. The dear brother in our church is going to pick up this gentleman and bring him to church tomorrow because he expressed interest in coming. We are praying he makes the commitment to the Lord.

I then came home from the hospital and storms arrived in the area. The tornado sirens went off and there were tornadoes in the areas. Just west of us in Murfreesboro Tennessee they struck. Many injured...some reports of deaths but no confirmations of that yet.......houses upon houses demolished. The kids were a bit freaked out by having to hide in our "safe place" but we got mostly high winds, heavy rains and some hail....but there are also reports of miracle survivors. I am watching the coverage and homes have literally just disappeared.....yet and still....

God is good. My father in law is good....someone gave their life to the Lord and the reports so far from the tornadoes are better than expected.........things could have been much worse if this had happened in the night.

Life and computer issues still keep me from blogging like I want. BUT our new computer will arrive about May 6th and hopefully that will solve some issues.

Not me monday fiasco/Not me Wednesday version

I had written a whole not me Monday...this week while my computer is down...in my word program and saved it as Not Me Monday....but apparently I was more sleep deprived than I thought cause it is the exact same as the post I wrote for kneeling in the gap.

I do not remember saving it over the other and wrote the Not Me Monday AFTER the kneeling in the gap article. So I have no idea what happened....

it is most definitely not me that would do such........as I am soooooooo computer savy......

it is not me who is frustrated with lots of things today......including the fact I can not get to the pharmacy to pick up Christopher's meds for many reasons that don't even make sense.

It is not me that wishes I did NOT have the nursery tonight cause surely I have no reason to be tired.

It is not me...who lost.....somehow the little boy I keeps diaper wipes......I have looked EVERYWHERE....and I can't find them.

It is not me who has wasted this week of spring break and done nothing "fun" with my kids except color on coffee filters and turn it into "tie dye" with sprayed water.

It is not me who is behind on my Bible Study homework.

It is not me....who wants to eat a boat load of Aussie cheese fries smothered in dipping sauce ( can't afford it so will not do it)...that would taste so good.

It is not me who is also craving lots of fattening mexican food...cheese enchiladas, burritos...tacos......hmmmm wonder if I am stressed cause all I want to do is eat......I am resisting the temptation at the moment to eat my self into a coma.....LOL.

It is not me who feels shallow and silly for posting that last not me statement.......but knows we all have our weaknesses...LOL....

It is not me who dropped a stroller...double one at that on her leg and has HUGE bruises that makes it look like someone beat me on that leg......one bruise is quite swollen...but it is not me who dropped it in the first place...cause it is not me who is a clutz.

It is not me who held my precious son in her arms today while he sobbed his eyes out over his Opa....and felt helpless and out of her league on how to handle the situation (thanks Heather for the advice)..but we did pray and talk and hopefully
that resolved some stuff

It is not me.....who is waiting for Jennifer to get up from her nap and is resisting the temptation to wake her just to get a cuddle...as I am feeling the need to hold my kids closer than ever.

It is not me.......who needs to give the kids a bath but will have to put it off on Daddy as I have to work in the church nursery tonight.....unless of course I can squeeze it in between baby I keep's pick up time and dinner fixing......

It is not me who just sat on my leg long enough while writing this post until it fell asleep and now it feels like a block of wood.

But IT IS me who is resting in the promises of God and waiting for a miracle on many fronts......I am at a place......I just need God to intervene.....show me His mighty hand and resolve some things that are so utterly out of my hands it is unbelievable. BUT MIRACLES DO HAPPEN.....and I am waiting and trusting God for it all.

kneeling in the gap

The kids are upstairs…”cleaning” their rooms but it sounds mostly like playing. This week is Spring Break and I need to really get motivated and do some Spring cleaning myself. I also want to take the kids outside for some good, old fashioned play time. Yet, I find my self with a lack of energy and motivation for either. The spirit is willing but the flesh indeed…is weak. I am tired and other family issues from extended family threaten to explode. I as always am caught right square in the middle expected to be the peace maker. I don’t know how to do it anymore nor do I have the strength. If I “side” with one….I am wrong…If I “side” with the other I am wrong. Yet neither wants to hear that they both need to just work on themselves and stop trying to fix each other. If I give “advice” which is asked for and it is not what they wan to hear…I am being judgmental and don’t “really understand”. OR I am accused of thinking I am perfect. That is far from the case. There is no way on God’s green earth I think I have the answers. And boy howdy to I know I am not perfect. I make mistakes daily. I have to repent for wrong actions and attitudes. I struggle with self everyday. The problems in this issue are wearing me out! No one wants to really listen…they just want to be told they are right and that they do not have to change a thing and that the other is wrong and needs to do all the changing. When it takes TWO to argue and it takes TWO plus One (Jesus) to fix and mend broken hearts, relationships, trusts etc. I am praying for a miracle. A miracle bathed in love and peace. I am not the peacemaker…..there is only ONE peacemaker. So now…….I stand in the only place I can…….rather I kneel in the only place I can. I kneel in the gap……praying the walls do not fall down around them crushing them with bitterness, anger and unforgivness. I once walked the road of unforgivness and it almost killed me literally. When God healed me…..He did not make it EASY to forgive but He made my heart whole. Why I can’t seem to share this with them where they can see my heart and feel that I feel their pain I do not know. So I will pray and I will stand in the gap and I will fight the enemy that seeks to destroy them until they are healed to the uttermost. God alone.is….able. I TRUST HIM……..now if only these precious people would let GO of their hurt, their anger, their frustration and let the healing power flow and TRUST God and others who He is trying to place in their lives to help…….

update...from the land of crashed computers..

Yes our computer crashed YET again....but thankfully we have a friend who is a computer tech/I.T./whatever you call it and he fixed it. Our computer is still slow but it works for now...until we can get a new computer.

I have two blog posts to copy and paste but wanted to do the update first.

My father in law fell a week ago. He did not go to the dr like we wanted until Sunday night. At that time the MRI and Cat scans showed a cerebral hemorage and the possibility of a stroke but the brain was swollen. Yesterday some time they let us know he has a benign brain tumor but were not sure where it was precisely located due to swelling in the brain from the hemmorage. His heart rate and blood pressure have been very low and he is slurring his speech. He has been in ICU. The latest info is that they are going to try moving him to a regular room to see if having visitors and what not will bring his heart rate up. Being so sedate in the ICU may be keeping it down because of inactivity and no conversation etc etc. I am not sure when that will take place. I also found out.....now my info is all 2nd and 3rd hand cause I cant go up with the kids and they are on spring break so I am at home with them. He will need brain surgery to remove the tumor....I do not know when this is or how long it will take or any other details. I do KNOW he needs PRAYER...lots of it. He is 66 years old and this type of thing is harder as you get older...not that he is old but you know what I mean.

God is able.......

I will post my 2 posts I wrote while crashed on another day......even if it isn't NOT ME MONDAY......LOL.