Pnuemonia

Christopher has pnuemonia. He is home but on round the clock treatments. He has received two doses of powerful antibiotic via injection at the dr's office. He has lost 2 lbs! He is one sick little boy but at least he is home and not in the hospital. It has been a rough week. My house is a wreck and I have fallen far short of my goals for Bible study, prayer, housekeeping and much more. I see some people who are able to do it all and keep their house clean and organized and tidy. I wish I had better skills at that. I am a work in progress. My patience level is sorely tested this week and I feel like a hypocrit. I just lost it with Hannah because of her continued disobedience and am going to have to apologize for losing my temper.....but I am so angry right now I sent her to her room to be alone. She has pushed me this week to the point I smacked her! I did not hurt her, well not physically, but I lost it, competely. I am at a loss of what to do for her disobedience, deliberate, willfull, right in my face disobedience. I am so angry I could cry. She is a good little girl, yet lately she is behaving horribly. I feel so much anger right now it freaks me out. I love my children. Yet, the anger I feel right now does not feel like that counts. I am ashamed of losing it with her. I am GLAD I sent her to her room though. I should not have smacked her so on the bottom but I did. Why do I let a child push me to this point? It has been such a stressful week, with little sleep and I know that is NOT an excuse......I am so tired and weary and I need God to do some things in me and for me. I can't put into words what I need right now.

Please Dear God: Forgive me for losing it with Hannah. Don't let her heart be damaged cause Mommy acted like a brat throwing her own tantrum. I hate when I do this Lord. I know I am a human being but I am an adult. Please God forgive me and help me soothe my child with love and patience. Give me wisdom to help her obey. I can not do this without you Lord. I can not be a good mommy without you Lord. Help me be the Proverbs 31 mom, sewing seeds of love and gentleness instead of anger
In Jesus Name Amen

Why Is It?

That I feel I can't brag or tell others about how truly smart my children are. Too often I downplay their abilities to others, not in front of the kids but I really don't tell others all they can do. For example, Jennifer had her 18 month checkup today. And in development she is at least at a 24 month level if not more. Yet, I don't share that on message boards or here very often. For one I dont think people will believe me and another is that I dont want people to think I am trying to play my child against theirs. I am proud of my little girl. She is tiny, weighs 20lbs 1 ounce barely and is 29.5 inches long. The doctor and nurse even said she was smart. I dont want to boast out of turn but I also do not want to down play their abilities. All 3 of my children are smart little cookies and God has blessed them mightily. I praise God for them, every part of them. I have so much to be thankful for!

colds, sniffles, upset tummies and Mommy Duty

The girls both have colds and the sniffles which make them quite crabby and cantankerous. Christopher woke up this morning, tossing his cookies, uhmm, for the sake of those with weak stomachs, poopie issues, and complaining of severe abdominal pain and back pain. So I took him to the doctor. At the doctor, the expected a child who had been puking all morning to pee in a cup. Well they sent me in the bathroom with my 7 year old, who thinks he is to big for mommy to see his private area to get a sample. To add insult to his humiliation, he had already messed up 3 sets of clothes and needed new underpants before we left for the doctor. Now, I had to wipe him with a special aneseptic cloth before collecting the pee. So I dab and swab and he has this look, like what in HECK are you doing. I explained as we went along but still he was so embarrassed. Finally, he squeezed all of about 8 drops and even shook it to try and get more out, which I had to fight to keep from laughing cause as sad as it was, it WAS funny. He was quite serious about it. Anyway, to make a long story a little bit shorter, they had to send a cup home with us to try and collect enough for a sample. It took all day! Finally, my husband arrived home to save the day. He came home to bring the stop the poopie medicine and Christopher was able to provide the much needed sample for Daddy. After all, he is a boy and that is a Daddy's job. So alast, Mommy Duty apparently has its limits. I can clean up puke and poop and other such stuff but apparently is not in the job description for Mommy to collect urine in a cup from a 7 year old boy. We still don't know if he has a UTI, hopefully we will know tomorrow. Yet in all this, I have discovered my son has reached a mile stone in boyhood. He is much to old for Mommy to help him with anything to do with his private area. After all, I am a girl. Poor kid was so embarrassed me having to help him. So here I sit at the computer glad he is feeling better, sorry he has been so sick today and yet a little sad because my little boy is growing up too fast. Doesn't need or want Mommy for some things. Perfectly understandable and natural but all the same hard for a Mommy to realize her one and only little boy is growing up way too fast for her. In the blink of an eye they grow and mature. While it is a good thing, it is still bitter sweet. Pride in their progress does not change the fact that to a Mommy, her little boy will ALWAYS be her baby.
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A note to my readers and favorite blog authors: I will get back to reading and commenting more when all 3 of my children stay healthy long enough for me to have uninterrupted time on the computer. Having my attention divided is not conducive to blogging. I can email or do message boards but to do serious blogging I need uninterrupted time to compose my blogs. So bear with my my friends, I will be more active, eventually.

Wordless Wednesday

5 in a row

5 in a row Meme

I tag anyone who reads this to do the same

1. Name one thing you do everyday:

Put on my glasses, othewise I am blind as the three blind mice.

2. Name two things you wish you could learn:

Spanish and like Shawna to take good pictures.

3. Name 3 things that remind you of childhood:

Cabbage patch dolls my girls got for Christmas, Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches I made the kids for lunch, popsicles.

4. Name four things that you love to eat but rarely do

Steak, mexican food at a good restaurant, chocolate icecream

5. Name five things that make you feel good

my kids smiles, cuddles, blanket just out of the dyer, a bubble bath, the smell of my freshly washed and lotioned baby.

and the day goes on

I made the girls a home designed lunchable with ham, crackers and cheese. The loved it. Then we had play time. I have to do my devotional time after I get them all to bed in a few minutes, there just has not been a chance because the baby has been crabby. My Mom and nephew came over and Hannah and Dougie played all sorts of pretend games. Jennifer played her own little games and hung on Mommy or Nanny half the time. Picked up Christopher from the bus, did homework, dinner etc. Now I have Jennifer in bed and the other two are going momentarily. Mike is at his 2nd job and I MISS him already. So as soon as they get in bed I will have my Mommy time with the Lord. I did get some accomplised but not all I wanted.

I am on a quest to find affordable healthy meals. I am trying to cut the fat, increase veggies and fruits in our diet. The cost of fresh fruit and veggies have goine up astronomically but I am determined for our family to eat healthy. Half our meal tonight was veggies instead of the usual 1/4. I am also going to do research for grocery co ops, you know where you can do volunteer work and then pay a low price for a bundle of groceries that include lots of things. I know that have it in several states I figure I just have to find it in my area. Usually that not only saves money but it also has pretty healthy choices in the bundle. Time will tell.

Today has been a good day. I have had my moments of frustration and aggravation and have had to fight snapping at the children, but while not perfect I have done pretty good. I am a work in progress. So I know I have done what I can today and God has blessed another day. There are still needs and worries God has to take care of because without Him there is no answer, but God will have to work that out. Worrying about it will not help me. So I leave it in the hands of my Lord and ask Him to carry my burdens......cause He is better at it.

A day in the life.....

of me......

My day started at 3 am because I woke up unable to sleep. Believe it or not the Lord has given me a message to share with a congregation. I don't know when, and I don't know where but it was burning in my heart last night. I will begin working on it today. Finally, at 5 am the Lord let me go back to sleep, after thinking and praying and pondering what He was writing on my heart. It is a work in progress. The alarm went of at 5:15 am and I lingered in bed while Mike took Christopher down for his morning treatment before breakfast. The baby woke up at 5:30 am and I joined Mike and Christopher downstairs. My dear husband put together Christopher's lunch and breakfast, what a blessing. I decided to change what Christopher wore to school today as it was COLD......20 something degrees. Brrrrrr, for us Florida transplants we are freezing. I cuddled with Jennifer and supervised Christopher getting ready for school as I tried to pull my brain together in something other than sleep deprived fog. My husband walked Christopher to the bus stop and took his morning walk. When he returned, I got dressed and took my walk. The cold......was invigorating, yeah, that's it, invigorating. But I will do more exercise this year. I came home and gave the girls breakfast and actually made myself eat breakfast. I have started a load of laundry and am working on house chores. FUN......uhm, maybe not fun but I will try and see it as fun. I let the girls play with some ladies shoes. They had a blast. A friend gave me some shoes to try but they are too big so I will need to pass them on to someone else. But the girls got into the bag of shoes and were much to cute to stop. That is it thus far, but the day still has much to do. Jennifer is sleeping and Hannah was hiding playing with her brother's game boy(she is not supposed to have it). So I just had to do some correction. I guess in her mind because her back was to me, I could not see what she was doing. Kids are so funny, even when they are naughty. Both the girls have nasty colds but no fever. I am about to do my daily devotions and prayer time, and then we will have lunch as soon as Jennifer wakes up from her nap. I have much on the plans for today and hope to get it all accomplished but if I don't get to everything, tomorrow will be here. After all, sometimes it is better to let kids play with shoes than it is to have a spotless living room.

To Be Continued(if it isn't too boring)